Well, life is full of ups and downs, isn't it?
And what matters is how we react to them.
The horse I went to see on Sunday, the horse I was making plans to buy, the horse whose owner hugged me and told me I'd be perfect for him and I could have first refusal...
She sold him to someone else.
Just like that.
Of course I was furious, and upset, to put it mildly, I was devastated. For the afternoon and evening I was, once again, that little pony-mad kid who had been told that she couldn't have her pony. It was a huge disappointment. To be honest, I cried myself to sleep.
This morning I woke and it is June 6th.
Twenty eight years ago today I sat on the floor of a crematorium, unable to stand, and wept through my father's funeral service.
Twenty eight years ago today, as were leaving to follow the hearse I took a phone call from The Ex's sister. My mother in law had just died of breast cancer.
Two years ago today I started on a course of chemotherapy for my own breast cancer.
June 6th is a day that challenges my family.
This morning I sat in bed with a cup of tea and thought back to those other June 6ths.
And then I deleted the messages from the owner of the horse and blocked any future ones she may try to send me. It was evidently not meant to be and that is that. There may be another horse, there may not, What will be will be. All we can do is go with the flow and keep on moving on...
N'est-ce pas?
Here's to being alive xxx
Bummer on the horse -- but the other losses really put it into perspective, don't they. And, unfortunately, there are some really unethical horse people out there (like in any industry, I suppose). If she misled you on being first in line for the horse, she probably misled you about the horse as well (health, temperament, etc -- its amazing what you discover sometimes once you get the horse home).
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